Last week sometime I got really, and I mean REALLY down on myself. I was redundantly mad about something I couldn't control (which just made me angry), and then there was a string of the tiniest little mishaps that just put me over the edge.
I resorted to calling my brother, who ironically calmed me down. He suggested I watch a little movie called "The Secret." It is really easy to access via Facebook, but it's a very basic, very B movie/documentary type flick.
Its title refers to the secret to success in life. I'm still not sure if this was just a cheesy thing that someone made, or if the people in the movie actually fully believe what they are saying, but regardless, it is definitely something to think about and go by in life. I, for one, believe it's very similar to the idea in the movie "Yes Man" with Jim Carrey. He follows it as if it were gospel, but toward the end of the movie the person who originated the idea of "Yes" said that it is just a thing to guide you, you don't have to say yes to everything in life.
Either way, I think that everyone should watch that movie. It's very enlightening.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Meow Meow.
It's been a while, because I've suddenly gotten busy.
Either way:
We have officially begun our spring cleaning, the first spring that my husband and I have spent together in our home. As of April 4th, we will have owned our own home for two years, but last year I went back to school to finish college.
In that time Chad's sister, brother-in-law and two kids have lived with us/him, up until last August.
It was nice to have help with rent and groceries, but we are also happy to have OUR home back, to do with it what we please. We have very slowly been reorganizing our stuff, and last weekend we finally got 99% of Tara and Matthew's stuff out of the main house part. There is still stuff in the garage, but we'll deal with that when it's warm out.
I am excited to completely be happy with the way our house is situated for once....hopefully that will come soon.
Every time I look at my house, I get slightly overwhelmed by the fact that there is just so much to be done, and the fact that we just don't have the cash to REALLY do with it what we want, like new flooring, and such.
We are doing this Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University thing, which is surely going to be awesome and totally worth it when we've paid off all our debts in about a year, but it also kind of sucks right now that we have to "live like no one else," which basically means not get what we want for some time.
But we just have to continue persevering and looking ahead and not getting discouraged when we see all our broke friends doing things on their houses that we want to do.
~~~~~Changing the subject:
I work at a day care here in Baker, at minimum wage. I like it there, it's very rewarding, but the board seems to be very slow moving and lazy. I've been there since Nov, and have still not gotten my 90 day evaluation and raise.....Plus, they desperately have needed to hire someone new to take a little bit of strain off of the rest of us since January, and we've seen no results. I don't even know if they've actively tried to find someone.
It's incredibly frustrating, especially since there are other, higher paying jobs that I could be doing instead, like working at the bank (which has the same exact hours as the day care) or one of the bars (overlapping hours). I've spoken to the bar owner, and I could feezibly do both jobs, but I just have to lighten up on my day care hours. That can't be done unless they hire someone new, and until my hours get adjusted, I can't start training at the bar.
I don't know what to do about it. Technically we don't NEEEEED the money, since we're living on Chad's income alone, but it would help us pay off our loans so much faster and save up for other things, and that would help a lot. Chad keeps telling me to just give the day care a sort of ultimatum, saying,
"Hey, i like it here, but you guys need to find someone else. We are trying to get out of debt, and the fact that i haven't gotten my evaluation/raise yet isn't helping us any. If something doesn't give (like hiring someone so i can cut down my hours), I'm going to have to find a job that will accommodate me better."
Although i agree that this delay is a bit ridiculous, I also would feel awful sort of threatening a small company--one that probably can't afford a big raise anyway--into paying me more or getting their buts moving because I would be putting them in a near impossible situation. I just don't know what to do.
Any advice?
~~~~~~
I also want to do a serious detox/get healthy kind of program of some sort. Since I graduated from college and stopped dancing as much as I used to, I am not in the best shape of my life, and it has started to show physically and emotionally.
If anyone knows of a detox program that works, I would love to know about it.
Either way:
We have officially begun our spring cleaning, the first spring that my husband and I have spent together in our home. As of April 4th, we will have owned our own home for two years, but last year I went back to school to finish college.
In that time Chad's sister, brother-in-law and two kids have lived with us/him, up until last August.
It was nice to have help with rent and groceries, but we are also happy to have OUR home back, to do with it what we please. We have very slowly been reorganizing our stuff, and last weekend we finally got 99% of Tara and Matthew's stuff out of the main house part. There is still stuff in the garage, but we'll deal with that when it's warm out.
I am excited to completely be happy with the way our house is situated for once....hopefully that will come soon.
Every time I look at my house, I get slightly overwhelmed by the fact that there is just so much to be done, and the fact that we just don't have the cash to REALLY do with it what we want, like new flooring, and such.
We are doing this Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University thing, which is surely going to be awesome and totally worth it when we've paid off all our debts in about a year, but it also kind of sucks right now that we have to "live like no one else," which basically means not get what we want for some time.
But we just have to continue persevering and looking ahead and not getting discouraged when we see all our broke friends doing things on their houses that we want to do.
~~~~~Changing the subject:
I work at a day care here in Baker, at minimum wage. I like it there, it's very rewarding, but the board seems to be very slow moving and lazy. I've been there since Nov, and have still not gotten my 90 day evaluation and raise.....Plus, they desperately have needed to hire someone new to take a little bit of strain off of the rest of us since January, and we've seen no results. I don't even know if they've actively tried to find someone.
It's incredibly frustrating, especially since there are other, higher paying jobs that I could be doing instead, like working at the bank (which has the same exact hours as the day care) or one of the bars (overlapping hours). I've spoken to the bar owner, and I could feezibly do both jobs, but I just have to lighten up on my day care hours. That can't be done unless they hire someone new, and until my hours get adjusted, I can't start training at the bar.
I don't know what to do about it. Technically we don't NEEEEED the money, since we're living on Chad's income alone, but it would help us pay off our loans so much faster and save up for other things, and that would help a lot. Chad keeps telling me to just give the day care a sort of ultimatum, saying,
"Hey, i like it here, but you guys need to find someone else. We are trying to get out of debt, and the fact that i haven't gotten my evaluation/raise yet isn't helping us any. If something doesn't give (like hiring someone so i can cut down my hours), I'm going to have to find a job that will accommodate me better."
Although i agree that this delay is a bit ridiculous, I also would feel awful sort of threatening a small company--one that probably can't afford a big raise anyway--into paying me more or getting their buts moving because I would be putting them in a near impossible situation. I just don't know what to do.
Any advice?
~~~~~~
I also want to do a serious detox/get healthy kind of program of some sort. Since I graduated from college and stopped dancing as much as I used to, I am not in the best shape of my life, and it has started to show physically and emotionally.
If anyone knows of a detox program that works, I would love to know about it.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
New To Blogging
I've done the whole Xanga thing, the Myspace thing and the Facebook thing. I am now officially a blogger.
I felt that Facebook just gets too overloaded with the whole "every minute detail" of one's day, and that there's another place for it.
So here I am.
For a while I was too nervous, and too busy to bother exploring this new journaling outlet on the web, but now that things have (sort of) begun to settle down in my not-so-new life, I have jumped in.
As of now, I don't know what to say, or how exactly to say it, but I'm sure things will come more easily for me sooner or later. Hopefully sooner. I would like this to be therapeutic for me.
I feel okay about this new chapter in my life. Go me.
I felt that Facebook just gets too overloaded with the whole "every minute detail" of one's day, and that there's another place for it.
So here I am.
For a while I was too nervous, and too busy to bother exploring this new journaling outlet on the web, but now that things have (sort of) begun to settle down in my not-so-new life, I have jumped in.
As of now, I don't know what to say, or how exactly to say it, but I'm sure things will come more easily for me sooner or later. Hopefully sooner. I would like this to be therapeutic for me.
I feel okay about this new chapter in my life. Go me.
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